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i miss my grandma.

i drove past all the places i took her for appointments yesterday. her hair salon is across the street from her eye doctor.

sometimes it’s just really hard to believe in a place like heaven because i saw them put her in a fucking box and put that box in the ground. i’m trying to believe that she has a soul and that it’s not gone completely and it’s just in a different place but i don’t care about that place. i just want her back here. i want her back right now. 

i want to erase the end of last year and the beginning of this year. too much bad stuff happened and i crumbled under the weight of all of it. 

i’ve never been a person that needed other people, i’ve never asked for attention. i’m very independent and i used to be content with being awake at night by myself but that changed somehow. 

sometimes all i want is to be held.

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  1. horsesfor-fraublucher said: *Hugs*
  2. pricelesszest said: I’m so sorry.. It took me so long to get to a place where things that reminded me of my grandpa were nice instead of sad. I’d give you the worlds largest hug if I could
  3. theblondebitch said: Ohhh…this is sad…I should go see mine sometime this week…see how she’s doing…
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